Motivation

For me, motivation to write comes in many forms. 

Some examples:
- There's something about sitting in a dark theater with a hundred or so people, all of you ready to watch a new story unfold on a screen as big as a house.  The thought just makes me giddy with the motivation bug. 

- When I read a book in a day because I can't put it down, because the words sing to me like the most addictive siren song I have ever heard, I want to do nothing but write something that may move another in the same way.

-I'm also an observer of people.  Watching the interactions of a husband and wife shopping together or a group of girls out to dinner is magic to my writing juices.  Wondering where they came from, what they are talking about and what they plan on doing in their future...well, it's inspiration in its purest form!  To me.

- I was reading someones blog the other day and the way they came about their inspiration inspired me too. 

So as you can see, tons of ways I can be motivated to write.

What about you?  What gets you excited to create another page, and another, and another until you have thousands of words and your own masterpiece?

Dear Future Self Blogfest

If you haven't signed up for the Gearin' Up to Get an Agent Blogfest, now's your time!

Now on to another kick butt Blogfest...


This one is super fab, hosted by Kristin Creative.  I think the above button is pretty self explanatory...basically write a letter to your future self.  Any kind.  Here we go!

Dear Future Self,

Holy smokes girl, you finally made it!  I knew you could...well sometimes I had my doubts, but I guess you showed me.  Now look at you schmoosing with other crazy and quirky authors, travelling on book tours and not just attending conferences, but dang, you're a guest speaker at some!
Also, I love that you have stayed true to the newbies, continuing to help those who were in your shoes not long ago.  Don't you ever forget how that felt.  I know riding high must be exhilarating, but isn't it so much better to share the journey!

I do have to say I'm sorry for dragging my sorry tail more times than not.  You could have been published a couple years before if it weren't for me getting in your way.  What can I say; I'm a sucker for punishment.

I love you!  You keep rockin' it like a super studded rock master and I will continue to muscle through! 

If I could walk into the future I'd give you a big ole hug, I'd also thank you for never giving up on us.  I can tell it wasn't easy, but man it looks like it's worth it.

Have fun, keep it real and always tell yourself what you tell our daughter.  "Remember who you've always been."

Much love chica! 

See you soon,

Present Self

P.S. Say hi to our agent and tell her not to be so hard on me when I query her:)

Momentary Lapse of Judgement

Don't you hate it when you have the best intentions only to belittle those intentions by not following through with them.

Such seems to be my life when it comes to writing.

Oh to describe what writing is to me...pure adrenalin, all encompassing, passionate and self fulfilling.  Those are just a few of the wonderful attributes that make it a love of my life.  To say it is a perfect union would be a lie.  It's more like an intense rendezvous filled with frenzy and intrigue, solace and oneness.  The ups and downs are many but they are all meaningful.

The problem comes when realization hits that it isn't just me and my computer riding off into the sunset.  My life is full of many wonderful things like children, a husband and a family.  It is also wrangled together with the hated things like guilt and self consciousness as well as the negatives I can't try to ignore such as moving three states over, paying bills, trying to sell a house in an unforgiving market and so on. 

Every day a battle wages in my head about what is more important, possibly fulfilling a lifelong dream of writing and being published or putting it on the back burner because I am not meeting the needs of the other 50 million things in my life. 

For a while writing was losing the fight when one day I talked to my husband who told me it was okay to let go and just do it.  Then my mom, same day, later that evening said, "You really need to finish this book Deana."

The other loves in my life are prepared to make sacrifices so I can do what truly makes me happy which is why they are so special and cause just as much emotion in me as does my writing.

So my quest has once again started.  It actually started a few weeks back and I feel the fires stoked and the power surging.  I am super charged and ready to go.

Look out world, a very passionate woman is on the verge of breaking free!